Hi Faundy.
May I ask what aspect of a belief in God do you feel a need for?
I wonder if it might be for " a purpose in life" as you said above.
Or a real desire to worship?
The answer to this question might help you orient yourself.
I think that a creator would like to see his children , happy, kind, generous, loving towards his other children etc.
Whilst I do not wish to hold to one particular set of beliefs, I do find alot of the above aspects,
well defined in Buddhism.
As for the meaning of life (wow): Everyone that has ever lived .....has died.
I will too. Whilst waiting for that, and in the same spirit as above, my purpose has become,
to be there for the people I love, so they can count on me, and eventually so they can go on without me,
smiling, when they recall the good times we shared.